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Dorn Arrives at Speculum Terrae Dorn and Fulgrim Discuss the Crusade, and Dorn shows a crack? The Emperor's Children 29th Great Company tries to widen the crack. Dorn showed fondness for Speculum Terrae, can the 29th break him?

Canticle of Absolution I'm tired....It has a been a long rough week in the real world. I barely had to time hobby, between tons of work issues and little bit of home life drama. I am drained. I have been pushing myself hard this week at work. I am behind in my 12 MoH vows and have 6 days to complete the models the 4 Scouts, Terminator ancient and start my Adepta Sororitas Celestian Insidiants Kill Team model. I feel the tension in my shoulders. The stress of not working on models is not helping my mood. I can feel the bout of depression looming in the background. Our hobby is supposed to a place of relaxation and destress. All of us in the hobby, have other issues we have to face in the real world that we need the escape from, be that work, school, family, or home life. The hobby is supposed to be fun. It is not always fun. Deadlines for modeling contests, FOMO preorders, supplies turning bad or running out, Bad game losses, or my personal favorite getting utterly obliterated in a game that your opponent complained the entire game about the only ide rolled he/ she failed. We should look at what takes the fun out of the game for us, and look at ways for make it better. On top of the everyday stress of life and issues we have. Our mental, physical, and emotional health is more important than a game, but are we taking time to discuss this and should we? Absolutely, I'll start. My gaming group says that I do not get out and play enough. My gaming group is made of mainly unmarried single men with no kids. Only 2 of us are married, and only 2 of us have kids and he has a daughter he shares custody with. I have 8 kids (1 adult, my wife's Biological son is married and out of the house, 6 adopted boys 13-7 years old, 1 baby girl, 5 month old we are fostering to adopt). So I am a dad first, and I have to give the wife breaks from the kids too. Also I live on average 45 minutes to an hour away from the rest of the group, so I have plan ahead. Sometimes the kids have things on Saturday so I can not go gaming. That is ok. Family is first. Are these issues, yes even if they are minor. Added stress. And my mother and Father in law now live 90 seconds away so more stress there. Raising substance exposed/ Special needs kids. My wife and her ex-husband were separated and were in the process of divorcing when he passed. My wife and I reconnected and started talking after they had separated. We were High School Sweethearts and have know each other since we were 11 years old and now in out mid 40's. He was living 15 minutes away from her and the kids, as she had full custody due to his health, and for those 6 months he was still alive, he barely saw their kids, did not do anything with them, demanded palimony and child support. After his death we learned how bad of "Dad" he really was. So here I am trying to show the kids what a dad should be like and trying to be better parent then I had. This actually messes with me emotionally as I see the lack of parenting I had growing up from my parents. On top of the fact 2 kids actually say that their "dad" did not love them and barely acknowledge them. Time away from the hobby to care for my family and take care of their needs. And learning to be a dad, on the fly. My new born baby girl Vivian Miriya......My wife and my sleep is non existent. We were notified about her on 11/02/2025 from Department of Child Services and picked up her up from the hospital 11/14/025. She is a kinship foster to adopt as our 12 year old is her half brother. Their biological drug addicted mother, walked out on her in the hospital after giving birth. We believe they have 4-6 other siblings and only one is with her biological dad the rest adopted by other families that were not is position to be able to take her so we were given the opportunity. I am absolutely terrified her biological mom will come back in the picture and I will lose my daughter. Terrified. Her middle name, Miriya, is after Adepta Sororitas Celestian Eloheim Miriya, from the James Swallow novels/ short stories Faith and Fire, Hammer and Anvil, Red and Black, and Heart and Soul. Married life. I love my wife. I always have. Since I was a little boy and first met her. But going from being in a long term relationship with freedom to do things and not having kids or a wife, is a trip. We are coming up on our 2nd wedding anniversary later this year and no one else on Terra I want to share this experience with. But I am Married with Children. I have to answer to someone. I have responsibilities and have to take care of others. No more long term hobby weekends*, pounding energy drinks and mountain dew. But if it wasn't for her, I would still be dreaming of going to Warhammer World, instead of wanting to go back to Warhammer World. She's a win in my book, even at the loss of some of my freedoms. Expenses is another issue. 40k is not a cheap hobby. And the world is getting more expensive every day. Four years ago I worried about feeding myself, my girlfriend at the time and our cats. Now I have my Wife, our kids and our cats to worry about, with the food expenses rising and 3 growing boys (13, 12, 11) and one 7 year old that can eat. Meal planning, grocery shopping, food prepping and cooking, all time taking expenditures that must be done. More stress. Price of modeling is increasing as well. Trying to get the kids in 40k is tough on the wallet. Teaching the kids 40k. Trying to find time between everything is difficult as is. therapies, counseling, after school activities, chores, snacks, etc. As an example we have after school today we have a counseling appointment for one kid and meeting with DCS for the baby at the same time, counseling for another kids after the meeting and dropping off one for respite weekend after his counseling session. Four things from 2pm to 4pm. before drive time. The one going to counseling then respite is the one that actually shows the most interest in the game and lore. Chores and Work. Laundry sucks. Chores suck. Work sucks. All more stress inducing things. Do I need to say more? Physical Health. I am diabetic, type 2, so controlled with diet and exercise. Time and effort that I am lacking and choosing the right foods to eat over the wrong ones. I need to find a gym and return to working out. I need to make time for it and make better food choices. This is all me. Mental Health. I struggle with my mental health. Somedays are good. Somedays are not. I am founding out more and more that some of the things I went through are not normal and are traumatic issues. Not placing all the blame on my parents or my biological family, I am no longer in contact with, but there are real issues they are at fault for and they do not care to fix and our relationship is seriously fractured. Between everything trying to find time is really hard then the wait to find a provider that takes your insurance is ridiculous. What are some of the stresses you are dealing with that you want to talk about or solutions you have found to help you out. *Unplugged vacations do not count.